If there was a moment
Just one of clarity for the place I should go
For the thing I should be
I would call to the heavens; thank the lord for it’s presence
But it got lost in my messes
It eluded my senses
And to think I’m so concerned with the way I’m perceived
When I’m forgotten once I leave
There is nobody here to remember me
Have I lost out on something
Have I given up nothing?
I am young aren’t I?
I am young shouldn’t I?
Be a traveller
Or so they say
Yes that’s what I should be
I should be a traveller and make money
And have money work for me
And be beautiful and thin
And post pictures of my ice cream cones on Instagram
And exercise copiously and hang out with all of my friends all the time
And meditate and have a quiet mind
And love and be loved but never too much
Because I have to be independent I’m not supposed to need anyone
I’m not supposed to want to need
I’m not supposed to be basic
I’m not supposed to take life seriously but also make sound investments.
And I can’t really see the light at the end of the tunnel because my vision
By some sort of message that’s making my eyes kind of dark
When I look away and everything is just spots and dim sparks
And there is some sort of sunlight but I can’t find it
I am stuck on the lives of others
I am stuck scrolling through all of the things nobody knew I did that day
because I forgot to put it on the Internet
Listening to music that people don’t like so I become irrelevant
Wondering where my place in the world lies while simultaneously trying to dig it in the dirt with a spoon
So have we lost ourselves
Have I lost myself?
Have I given
Have I taken
I guess the question becomes
Have I done enough of both because you see there is so much possibility
All the time
And I feel like crying out to everyone I meet please understand
I’m working on it
Please do not judge my current state
Please do not lament me the way that I
I’m trying to become something.
I’m trying to become something.
Poignant ponderings. 🙂
It’s tough being a millennial, isn’t it? Or if you’re not a fan of that label… just being a young adult, I guess. This is really moving.
thank you, and yes, sometimes it really is.
God, funny and scaring that i woke up this morning thinking the same! 🙂
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Thanks for sharing 🙂
A wonderful tale of introspection.
“And post pictures of my ice cream cones on Instagram”
“I am stuck on the lives of others”
Your verse is relentless. It’s so full of energy, like an engine at high rpms without the clutch engaged. A search for what’s genuine. What is authentic inside ourselves and what is genuine we can receive from others. Goodness, a worthy search. And so valuable.
Thank your for reading from my blog. Thank you, more, for writing here.
You’re welcome, I enjoyed your posts, thanks for visiting 🙂
Ah well, as Master Yoda said to young Skywalker, “Do, or do not: there is no try.” We don’t need permission from anyone when seeking to become “something.” First lesson: we are already “something” or we would not be at all. What some are attempting is to become something else than what they have inherited, or that they perceive themselves being. Now that’s when things really get interesting and the seeker discovers that no one, and I mean no one, not even some deity, has any right to question that nor any power to prevent it. Go ahead, become something else: it’s what life is all about! Good piece of work… again.
Expressive and impressive.
YES! Thank you for the like on my blog. Really, thank you. 🙂
my pleasure 🙂
It’s nice that you just laid out your thoughts out there. I would think many people feel that way, they just don’t admit it.
wow!!! very deep and so much truth.
Are you feeling okay? If I may ask.
Beautifully written and you express and question everything right down the tooth. 🙂
So well expressed. 🙂
glad you enjoyed it 🙂
Wow. I could really relate to this. It’s that struggle of youth or even humanity to live up to a standard that is unlivable. While at the same time pursuing a passion that seems so vital to the individual, but is often looked down on by the crowd. Thank you for this.
Thanks Simeon, glad you enjoyed it!
I believe you are becoming a star…
this is beautiful 🙂
Thank you 🙂
stop “trying.” – you are. continue….
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Great write. Congrats.
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