Think

They have all forgotten to move or to breathe. They have all forgotten to dance and to be swift and cunning and electric. They have forgotten that I existed once in this space where quiet voices heard and wanted and desired me.

I have forgotten how to exist among them. There were days when I thought all the beauty was ever flowing that my hands were my message that my mouth was my ticket, a gold mine, a gold rush.

There were days when the sun didn’t shine and even when it did my eyes were glazed over and tortured by the possibility of being someone else. And so the days grew longer and the silence took hold and the hold became stronger and the noises so much louder and the teeth bit back harder.

Still, I thought I was part of the wonder was part of the wanderer clan was outside of the normal. Deadlines keep coming and I am still standing renegaded to the back on the grounds of self-pity. There is nobody who weeps longer for me than I do.

There is no one who drinks the poison more readily than I and perhaps one day I will cease to be its prisoner but for now, it is oh so beautiful and I am so ugly. Dumping glitter on it doesn’t make it pretty does it?

I have forgotten how to exist among them. I have forgotten that words have to mean and I can wield that meaning because I haven’t and I wouldn’t. When someone tells you they don’t love you it’s supposed to make everything come out like a tortured manifesto that they all eat up.

But you have taken more than my heart you have taken what should have been my saving grace when you walked out the door and said time felt fast and slow at the same time, and not in the good way.

Think.

I have forgotten to move or breathe.

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16 Comments

Run Wright on April 9, 2017 at 12:17 am

Beautifully expressed.
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Hope on April 9, 2017 at 5:20 am

Wow! A true masterpiece!
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- Miri Elm on April 9, 2017 at 6:39 pm
  
  thank you 🙂
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applesmangoes on April 9, 2017 at 11:44 am

Reblogged this on Random Musings of an Apple.
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- Miri Elm on April 9, 2017 at 6:39 pm
  
  thanks so much for sharing!
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cherokee2017 on April 9, 2017 at 12:59 pm

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- cherokee2017 on April 10, 2017 at 5:18 am
  
  i love your sensitivity
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Ben Aqiba on April 11, 2017 at 4:57 am

Just great
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- Miri Elm on April 12, 2017 at 11:19 am
  
  thank you 🙂
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greyandpinkcells on April 12, 2017 at 4:38 am

This is so beautiful
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- Miri Elm on April 12, 2017 at 11:20 am
  
  thank you 🙂
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mindyhearth on April 23, 2017 at 9:10 pm

How old were you when you began writing? I’m really inspired by you, you’re so talented
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- Miri Elm on April 24, 2017 at 9:49 am
  
  thank you! I’ve honestly been doing it probably sine 7 or 8 years old, only started actually putting it out publicly when I was 23 though
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reshrawat on December 10, 2017 at 8:33 am

being free, love your post
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